Aaargh …. I hate to talk about this and I did not dare to talk about it with my friends and my family because I know this is something new to me.
Is this a revenge for me Lord? I never loved a woman and I never understood what the meaning of love. But this time, I like experiencing what is called love.
This is really disgusting, a difficult problem to solve. I’m afraid if I wouldn’t make her happy, I’m afraid I might be bad in her eyes. Even until now I did not dare to meet her.
I used to think that she is an investment for me, even I feel this heart has been dead for a woman. But now I feel I want to glorify her and biting her. But I’m afraid if my life choices wouldn’t make her happy.
Every night I’m always thinking about her even though I knew it was forbidden for me. I always want to close with her but I know I don’t have the right until the time comes. God, please give her to me. I give up I’m honest I can’t lose her but I did not dare to say even to You.
If someday she’s not for me make me strong, make it easy to me. Thanks my Lord. I count on You.
